Sick of the Roller Coaster I call - WEIGHT!

If there is anything I would like to teach my future daughter (if I have one ever), it is to love the skin she is in! Love it so much she talks nicely about it and she does everything to take care of it! That God the Creator of the Universe decided she would be the only person that was HER!

In order to do that, I have to set the example...and BELIEVE IT!

In high school, I overheard some guys talking about the girls saying that they actually thought I was prettier than one of the popular girls in the face, but I needed to lose weight! (I WASN'T FAT!) So I observed what people ate and how they ate it. I'd make mental notes of those who were overweight and those who I thought looked perfect - and then I'd put the notes to practice by asking: What do I want to look like? What should I eat? How should I eat it? Truth be told - I've never really been able to eat like those I think look perfect! I LOVE FOOD WAY TOO MUCH!

In college, I gained weight. I don't know if anyone escapes the freshman 15! Do you know of anyone? Anyway, I overheard some guys, my supposed friends, say to each other that I would be pretty if I lost a couple pounds. One guy even suggested I put on his belt just so he could see what hole I'd use...JERK!

In Korea, I gained weight. My piano teacher told me straight up that I had a pretty face, but my body was horrible. Post Korea, I lost weight (I was depressed) and then gained it back when as I was feeling happier. My brother told me that some guys told him, that I would be pretty if I lost some weight. I ended up gaining more!

I lost a bunch of weight in 2009, after I left a job that was going south and even more when I started working retail! I know for a fact that retail got me thin quick because I couldn't stop working even though I was hungry and also because I moved, lifted, carried, sorted so much crap in such a small amount of time. It was seriously four hour workouts every time I went in.

Unfortunately, I gained it ALL back (plus more) when I became a teacher. I stopped working out as often because I am so doggone tired at the end of the day or I'm always doing something or meeting up with friends that involves FOOD!!

I also gain every time I travel even if I'm not eating every carb that comes in sight. For whatever reason traveling makes me gain! I hate that bc I do enjoy traveling! So - I have to figure out WHY!!

For the record, I want to say that I never once cried about what these people had to say. Coming from a straight shooting Mexican family, I took it in, shrugged my shoulders and kept walking. I've always thought that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. They were helping me get stronger because people will always say what they want about me and I'll never be JUST right for them...People always have their opinions and they are always changing. I did actually chew one person out for it! I think by that time I was tired of hearing the same comments from people who say they "care" but have no idea what's going on with me.

Unfortunately, in my late twenties - and in a week, my thirties - I've not only gained weight, but grew a belly! Every year, I set a goal to lose weight but never ever set a plan to accomplish it. For me - a list maker - it DOES NOT WORK. Doesn't even work short term....Setting a goal without a plan is like waiting to do it tomorrow. We all know that tomorrows like that never come! So, after having a good solid SOBBING session this weekend, I sat down and made a plan.

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People who soar are those who refuse to sit back, sigh and wish things would change. They neither complain of their lot nor passively dream of some distant ship coming in. Rather, they visualize in their minds that they are not quitters; they will not allow life’s circumstances to push them down and hold them under.
-Charles R. Swindoll

My goal –
*To lose 40 pounds in one year!
*To look great on my wedding day.
*To add another Half Marathon to my belt.

What I hope to gain by reaching my goal –
*To feel comfortable in dresses
*To have clothes that fit nicely
*To have healthier habits
*To look and feel as pretty as I did when I worked at the LOFT

What is the cost?
*~3 pounds per month (~2 pounds per two weeks)
*No coke, More water
*No dinner after 7:30
*Go to bed earlier
*Prepare food for lunch
*Exercise!
*Small treat twice a week
*Eat fewer processed foods – MORE FRESH FOOD!
*Pack good snacks for work – nuts, fruit, veggies
*Eat until I’m SATISFIED – not full…STATISFIED!!

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This my friends is very personal, and something I would prefer NOT to share, but I'm fed up! I'm completely fed up and I'm trying to figure out a way to change my eating habits, change the way I think about myself because I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE, change the way I think about food, and be intentional about the things I eat! I suppose that having a monthly report on my progress and recipes of what I prepare for myself is something worth posting and exciting to share...not to mention something to hold me accountable.

I started this up on Monday and I've cheated twice! :o( I'm trying to not beat myself up about it because it is new, but I'm also not making any excuses. First cheat was because it was in front of me and I didn't think before putting it my mouth. Second cheat was because I was officially hungry and I was stuck without any snacks (I hadn't packed any that day).

Anyway, all that to say is that I'm excited to put this plan into action...Visualising myself a year from now I get so excited! Even 2 months from now! Heck - for a 5 foot tall individual 4 pounds is like 40! NO JOKE!

Looking forward to a healthier ME!

Roald Dahl

By this time last year, I had devoured plenty of books. It was an unquenchable desire to read and read....and a bit melancholy when the book was over (not true for EVERY book, but almost). This year, I cannot for the life of me get into reading. A dry spell. I've tried. I have 6 pages of books on my kindle that I haven't read. No first page has hooked me into read past the first few pages.

I've missed reading terribly and I wondered if the books stunk or if I was booked out. Maybe I just needed a break.

That was the thought until I picked up Roald Dahl's Matilda!! OMG! If you haven't read it, YOU SHOULD. Sure it's a kiddy book, but you should still read it.

You're still not sure?

Well, let me give you a short excerpt:

It's a funny thing about mothers and fathers. Even when their own child is the most disgusting little blister you could ever imagine, they still think that he or she is wonderful.
Some parents go further. They become so blinded by adoration they manage to convince themselves their child has qualities of genius.
Well, there is nothing wrong with all this. It's the way of the world. It is only when the parents begin telling us about the brilliance of their own revolting offspring that we start shouting, "Bring us a basin! We're going to be sick!"

It goes on! And it's had me laugh out loud more than once! Maybe that's what I needed. I laugh. I've DEVOURED it!

I'm considering reading the rest of Roald Dahl's collection. Maybe even work on getting all his books in my library. That would be LOVELY!

Deep in the Heart of Texas

I'm a city girl who wishes the stars were more visible in the night sky like they are in the country. I wish I could sit on my roof and gaze...hear nothing except the beating of my own heart. I don't want to clear out manure, or ride a tractor to mow the lawn, or stack hay bails, or drive an hour to the nearest shopping center. All I want from the country life is the STARS (okay - and the quiet too!)

The weather has been perfect...not to hot, not to cold - like April 25!

I just wanted to say: I CAN SEE THE STARS IN THE CITY SKY!

Taking in a deep breath and thanking God for a clear spring nights.

*Name the two movies I made references to! Easy Peasy!!
*I miss blogging. Shutting down just means I haven't really had anything to share per se...

Shutting this baby down!

I've said goodbye to Facebook and don't regret it. Now, I'm saying goodbye Delightful Surprises!

Thank you for the wonderful feedback (Shelly and a few others!).

All that's left on the web of me is Twitter @mimosupremo.

Peace out. Keep it real!

Fork In The Road

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it.

Isaiah 30:21

Sometimes, I would like for someone to make decisions for me so I wouldn't be the one responsible for whatever happens next. Yes, I believe that God directs are steps, that He is almighty and sovereign. At the same time, I will be the first to admit that lately I'm terrified to take a step.

What the H am I walking into? What in the world will my life look like if I step in this or that direction? What will I miss if I don't walk this way or that way? What will I have to let go of? What will I gain/lose? What hats will I be wearing here or there?

The questions are forever long.

At one point the direction was clear...and it turns out that now it isn't so clear. Why isn't it? Is it a distraction? Is it a closing door? Is it the pressure to build character (sweeter wine)? Why do I feel SCARED to go in either direction?

There's a hymn that says: Trust and obey for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

The thing is that I don't know what direction is "obedience."

I've asked for wisdom. I've sought counsel. The only response I get is: It's between you and the Lord. Only you know what He's asking you to do.

It's like when I ask for advice from a superior colleagues after trying all the tricks I know...they say: You're the professional in the classroom. Only you know what's best for your students.

I would just like to scream from the rooftops:

I DON"T KNOW!!!
(I DON'T KNOW!!!)

All I know right now is this:

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  I am praying and asking for direction and I still feel so STUCK.


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  I am exhausted. Like seriously, I want to cry like a kid without his nap.


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  I have A LOT going on.


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  I know I'm not the first person to be in this situation.

With all that being said, God is still on His throne and the world will continue to spin. I will be okay, but this waiting and indecision is killing me softly...

The next time a kid steals your phone...

Tell them you have a GPS tracking device that you haven't activated because you want to give them a chance to turn it in. Once you turn it on, the police will start looking for it. Tell them you don't actually know who took it, but if they could help you find it they'll receive the reward for tracking it down.

I'm giving them a week before my GPS "activates." Then, I'll let their own imaginations give them nightmares.

Praying I get it back. I'm having serious iPhone withdrawals.

Do you have a favorite poet?

I do. His name is Langston Hughes. I've admired his work since my sophomore year in high school after my English teacher, standing on her desk, recited A Dream Deferred.

This one is one I came across today! It made me smile.


Harlem Night Song

Come,
Let us roam the night together
Singing.

I love you.

Across
The Harlem roff-tops
Moon is shining.
Night sky is blue.
Stars are great drops
Of golden dew.

Down the street
A band is playing.

I love you.

Come,
Let us roam the night together
Singing.